Persistence

i am not smart, but i work hard.
i am not fast, but i can stay late.
perfectionism is only ideal.
however, my persistency will make up for my lack of experiences

Farewell

Another farewell to a good friend of mine.

Good bye to John Fong.

Have a safe flight and wish you the best of luck in Hong Kong.

And don't ever come back!

As you said, you will only come back to Toronto if you go bankrupt in the next two years.

忘記...傷害

Although this song is long time ago,

but whenever I listen to it,

it still triggers back lots of memories.

Argh!!

Just went through the toughest day ever.

-there are endless amount of revisions to the design which requires me to work on the weekend again.

-an argument with my mom about her cook. I will not eat shit that was cooked and left in the refrigerator for over ONE WHOLE week. It is fucking disgusting and unhealthy. When I saw her recooked those left over, I threw all of it to the garbage bin immediately. I am not wasting food and being disrespectful. I just can't afford to get sick during these crazy busy days. All I want is to enjoy a home made dinner after an exhausting day at work, am I asking too much?

-had the worst haircut in my entire life. Seriously, I just want to fucking shave my whole head right now. There are no proportion and style to the haircut. After today, I learned a lesson that I will never go to cheap place ever. This clearly proved that the fancy and expensive salon I used to go to worth the money. Hair dresser really does have the power to fuck up your confident level.

Argh!!!!

BTW, an ad of someone totally made my day! hahaha

鋼鐵是怎樣煉成的

Fin Izakaya

Fin Izakaya. One of the authentic Japanese restaurant in Toronto.
Its expensive, the size of the dish is small but it taste awesome!
the sad thing was we went to McDonald afterward since none of us were full.

As for work, I can stay in the firm longer. Yah!
My contract got extended.
I will use this opportunity to push myself to learn and learn.
who knows what i will do after this job.

Continue?

Its almost September, and the three of us are now in a same boat.

We still haven't heard anything whether we can stay or not. However, my schedule for next month is already full. Piles of detail drawings, renderings, 3D modeling and furniture design. All of those are due in the same week. So is that mean I can stay a bit longer?

When I told the designer that I've been working with for the pass 4 months, "next tuesday might be my last day". She almost collapse. Since its hard to complete such a big project by herself. Well, I will find out soon next week.

Life must go on. Stay positive, keep learning and do my best (meaning working on the weekend again).

無緣罪

有試過討好各方,
交過真心，卻視為，公式化.

人言實在嚇怕,
真心輾轉刮花,
如回話, 越變差.

回家歸隱更好嗎？
離開風吹雨打...

imac in action

One word: Sexy.

summer fun

It's been a year since the last time i went to bbq. Last summer we were at Scarborough Bluffs, but this year we do it the ghetto and dirty way --> Miliken Park!

This is definitely one of the most memorable event of the summer. As you can see, we took some really sick photo. Thanks to our professional photographer! And the person that set up the fire for us. The food were absolutely amazing (although we ran out of ice to freeze the meat).

I am so excited for my new iMac. Finally saved up enough money to purchase it. Can't wait! Better computer meaning more productive for work.

Moron

I know she's been sick and can never be cure, but I don't need people keep on reminding me what i should do. You are not the fucking leader of the family, so stop acting like you are! We know you are wealthy, but your money stinks!

"Oh I don't wear those kind of jeans you are wearing, I think they looked cheap. I only buy clothes oversea or custom made."

Honestly, I don't think my Club Monaco, Hugo Boss and Lacoste are cheap. And I do not looked like a sales person when I was in China. I worked like 10 hours a day, plus 3 hours in the fucking subway. How the fuck you expect me to find time to call her all the time. Its not that I don't care about her; Face it, her end is near. There is nothing we can do. Such a moron.

獨男

Love this song ~

孤獨並無罪
逼不得已 才愛上了自由

Summer wish list

I started to hate my working space at home. Since the space is only 4'-1/4" by 8', so i have two tables at each end. Over the years, i've only been using one table, and the other one just piled with useless junks. I decided to throw one table away and get this Ikea bookshelve. The price is reasonable $199.99 and it fits perfectly into my tiny working space. I love the one with two glass doors, however it cost $399.99!! That is completely out of my budget. T.T

My other wish item is the iMac which cost $1149.99 with student discount. It comes along with a free 8GB ipod touch with engraving at the back. I am not a person that will carry my laptop wherever i go, so desktop is more useful for me and is cheaper and more powerful.

I must work hard and save money this summer!

等待

你可否尝试過在咖啡店等待某 人，但此人从来没有出現?

"望著侍應寫單 為何還未見你
我太快死心怎可不驚訝 現實又過一刻
難捱無謂 勉強 連場沉默咖啡已早變酸

時候還未到 還是我大意 還是你話有些萬分緊急要事
時候還未到 還是我大意 還是你已表示

時針不會為誰停留 手中那煙越來越短
陽光總帶著和暖 內心就越來越冷淡"

Nonchalant

gloomy sky with heavy rain drops
doesn't feel like going anywhere today
just want to rest at home quietly without any disturbance
wish life can be simple

Brazen Head

Had a fantastic night at Brazen Head with II BY IV.
the weather is beautiful although a little breezy,
but the outdoor patio is amazing with gorgeous view.
it is so relaxing at a place like this after work.
Hope we can have another party soon!

First O.T.

星期六日要上班!!

This week was intense. It's been a year since graduation that I'm this busy, but I love every second of it.The logo I designed is in production, working and helping senior designers on five projects. I can see why sleeping is a distant memory for them. I feel so grateful that I can worked with some of the top people in the industry.

I guess there wouldn't be any fun activity this weekend, since thunder storm and shower is up ahead. The new season of SYTYCD finally begun. I will glue my ass in front of TV everything Wed. and Thurs. night!! So excited.

畫意

此歌說出著名藝術家 - 梵高 (Van Gogh)的生平,
他在世時, 沒多人欣賞及留意他的作品,
但到了死後才得到肯定及接受!
這就是否商業的價值呢??

relaxing day

Had an amazing weekend with friends ~~

although i almost got a heat stroke on saturday after spent an hour under the blazing sun, but i quickly recovered following a good night of sleep, gym and sauna.

life is good since summer started. i hope this can continue throughout the year.
It's hard to predict what will happen next. I know if i keep walking on the this path, soon i will reach the destination i dream of; because "your life is what your thoughts make it"

運

怎麼叫運　視乎你心理
捱盡黑夜便可看得到晨曦
極運滯日子都不要忘記
還在呼吸心跳　我未被遺棄

當　好景不再　我們來聽聽
你到底　出聲打氣　還是只懂得怨命
我相信際遇如一面鏡
用笑代替哭聲　霉運才能撥正

撐到底　奮鬥心不死
渡過低潮　我先見到熱潮
成熟了　明白了
才悟到了命途的奧妙

Pink night

Sally's "pink" birthday last weekend.
The group pictures that were taken are so pink!
You can see the gradation from soft pink on the right to the hot pink on the left.
Everyone were nervous and afraid of the game 'Queen' haha.
Thanks to eric who donate his clean basement for us to party all the time!
Whos birthday is next?

Hillside Garden

Beautiful day at High Park.
Although there aren't much cherry blossom to see, but we still had a fantastic time.
Hope I can make it in time next year
One more week, then i will be busy for the summer!

有時樹會倒下，某片天頃刻明亮
有時淚會淌下，別太緊張
有時沒有音樂，你的心可 輕輕唱
沈默裏，人面匆匆閃過
寧靜如常
--- 靜止

Random Thoughts

"The biggest barrier to success is the fear of failure"

Although its only two short weeks, but I honestly learned alot and overcome the fear of making decisions based on what you believe is right. It is true that creativity needs courage. And that courage is what you need when there are too much freedom of what you can do. I am still 'green' comparing to the people that I'm working with, but I'm very happy that they are willing to teach you stuffs and trust you on certain projects. Some others got hooked up for the position, but I'm like a 野獸, 死就死 la! I believe my own strength.

This month is super busy for me. Intern from Monday to Friday, and AutoCAD class on Saturday. Only one day to take a break. Well, it's all worth it. I have the opportunity to see how design in the real world works and work on a real project.

It is always this dilemma that you want to gain something, sometimes you have to sacrifice something. ummm. I felt something good is going to happen.

Updated 04.19.10. 10:00pm
I'm so glad! Good thing does happened!

過程

一直在學 習，一直在成長，一直都覺得，只要當個勤奮努力的人，早點學多點人生道理，就會早點找到快樂的真諦，會提早一點當個只擁有快樂和安逸的人。

我明白了些事，就是放輕鬆點讓 事情發生，讓自己有機會邊走邊學習解決問題，而不是袋着一堆道理就想走天涯，人生過了幾場才知道錯過了的，是比時間更重要的 “過程”。

Maybe its my fault at the beginning or maybe I am not mature enough to act like a mature person. Whatever happens from now on, I wouldn't comment or say the 'unnecessary'.

End of March

Oyster Party + Dinner @ Beer Bistro
Half of the people got really sick after the oyster party. haha Shame on them.
This week's weather is drop-dead gorgeous! no more freezing cold of winter.
My goal for April is focus on my last month of Intern, meanwhile looking for a full time position
I have a good feeling I will find one!

Perfect

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start

BB

My new Blackberry Bold 9700. Now I am connected to the social world. It is true that you can get more discounts if you call the Rogers call center about issues you are experiencing with your new smartphone. I even asked is it true that i get 2.00 dollar discount off my bill if i chose the "Go Paperless" online payment. But the representative said its a myth. T.T
Now my plan is:

• 150 + 50 bouns weekday minutes
  
• unlimited send and receive text msgs
  
• 6pm early evening
  
• unlimited evening and weekend
• free whocalled and call manager
• 500 MB Data
• Rogers bundle 10% off on cable, internet and wireless

Thanks to Ben Lo for letting me download his amazing concept art as my phone's wallpaper
http://benlo0.blogspot.com/

畫上句號

Option one: Intern once, sometimes twice a week til August
Option two: Intern full time for one month in April

I guess I will pick option two. This way, I can work on a project from concept to finish.

It is hard to find a good part-time while Interning. And i don't want to find a shitty one and keep switching at the end. Trust me, i quite 3 part-time jobs already!
Also, the office is fully staffed, the possibility for them to hire me is 0%. That is why i decided to go all out at once, and move on with my life in May. The large amount of resume from new grad looking for junior position and intern completely bombarded the email system. (only 3 got reply for intern position, the rest are "rock-sink-big-ocean"). I am starting to find a full time job now. Although i want to be a designer, however, my goal is very flexible. It is a struggle between dream and reality. My reality is money over everything else.

Maybe I should stop chasing unrealistic dreams. Find a good full time job and move on!

小團圓

"誰的書 寫到盡處 居然會如願
自傳中 千轉萬轉 竟如初所算
在最壞時候 懂得笑 哭得出 不會亂
其實我 亦怕苦 亦怕酸 難免
做個壞一點的打算 缺陷才像圓

在最壞時候 想一遍 這一點 好片段"

綠幽靈

綠幽靈 also known as the Green Phantom.

屬正財，具有招財，聚財。綠色水晶中的綠光是現代經濟動脈的光，若想擴展業務，吸引更多的財富因緣，便須要綠色水晶，綠幽靈水晶中的綠光有高度凝聚財富的力量。

由於異象水晶是內涵各種火山泥內包物的，因而會出現各種各樣，千姿百態的幽靈，所以極具觀賞價值，有晶體清澈且綠的；或墨綠而有大量內包物聚集在一起的， 有人叫它為聚寶盆；有晶體白而含有眾多紅色，紫色等顏色內包物的；更有晶體內包物形成三角形塔狀的，俗稱金字塔；也有晶體內包物呈多層狀的，俗稱千層。也 有分散的白點，綠點稱為滿天星。金字塔形狀代表了宇宙間的創造力量同時人們認為它也代表了不斷進步，步步高升的寓意而備受人們追捧。至於哪種好呢？常常首 先還是要綠，至於清透型的還是內包物多的好，在於個人喜好了，如果內包物有美妙的景致的話，那您就撿到寶貝了.

Mine is 清透型 with 墨綠, 紅色 and 紫色 mixed together. It has 聚寶盆, 滿天星 and 千層.

03.10.2010

They were impressed by my craftsmanship. hehe. I am the model maker in the office now.
I will be taking the AutoCAD Certificate course at GB starting next sunday.
By the end of July, I should be able to finish the advance course, and ready for the 3D modeling and rendering in CAD in 2011 Jan.
Although I am familiar with AutoCAD, however, comparing to the senior designers in the office, I am like a "dai lung". That's why they recommend me to take this course, since some of them did it as well.

Getting better?

Am I imagining things, or my life actually start getting better compared to 2009. Through my depression, I was able to define who I am and what i'm looking for in the future. Whatever others say or think, it doesn't matter anymore. Everyone have their own patch to walk, I guess mine is slow at the beginning, but i can guarantee it will be sky rocket in the coming years.

Felt a little awkward/surprise today. I never expect a weird 'conversation' like that. On the other hand, it might be a good thing, since it has to do with a level of trust and how others perceive me as a someone they can talk with. Anyways, i'm not trying to write an abstract sentence, hahaha. but yeah, I'm happy. At least someone acknowledged me.

I am not alone

一公升的眼淚

真人真事改編
一套好感人既劇集，教曉我要珍惜生命
提醒自己生命的有限與無常，想做的事就做，不要遲疑， 不然錯過就過了～

keep smiling

I've been very superstitious lately.

I think its because I couldn't find a 'real' job for so long after graduation and the part-time jobs I found were either really shitty or like child labour. Therefore, I went to get my 八字 and hopefully can get a general answer from it.

Well, it shows that from 2009 to 2013 will be the worst luck in my entire life. The 'c-fu' said I will not find a stable career until august in 2014! SHit!!!!!!! Well, I only believe 50%. But I still follow his instruction and did 風水陣 to help reduce my bad luck, since it cost really little, so why not give a try and see if that works or not.

新年快樂

Happy Chinese New Year + Valentines Day

Wish everybody the best of luck in 2010.

Also, as the new year blossoms, may everyone's journey of life be fragrant with new opportunities, days be bright with new hopes and hearts be happy with love!

虎年, 好景好運好心情, 好心地好人好事好天氣, 好身段好時光好溫馨, 好得意好好笑好可愛好好味， 好好, 好好!

O.Noir

Yesterday, I had the most amazing and unique experience night ever. I felt so blessed for having eye sight to see the world. Although only two short hours, I can clearly understand what blind people are going through everyday. How they live in a world that is pitch black, not even a single drop of light exist. They can only feel the surroundings with their sense of touch, smell, hearing, and taste.

In the O.Noir restaurant, we have to order our food before we walk into the dining space. Inside it is complete darkness. We have to put our left hand to the left shoulder of the person in front of us, follow the waitress (actual blind people) in order to get to our table. It took us 5 minutes to know who is sitting beside who, since we can only hear each others' voice only. This means we have no idea what the room looks like nor the food. All cell phone, camera, flash light and luminous watches are prohibited.

We "became" blind for 2 hours and our remaining senses are heightened. We can only use our imagination to picture the space we are in. Thank you O.Noir for given such wonderful experiences and raise the awareness about blind disability.

I will definitely come back again in the future.

FiFi 25

Its FiFi's birthday, and we had tons of fun on Saturday night. Especially when we were taking the group picture, one resembles the kindergarten class. The games we played after the potluck were a little on the dirty side, but everyone seems to enjoying it. haha Nobody got trashed this year which is good in compared to last year. Hope everyone will have a good start this year.

月亮說 - 王菀之

凝望你背影 傷感沾濕眼睛
明月夜再清 可惜心水更清
沒有半點雲彩 遮掩遍地的愛
伸手會拾到往日美麗的歡笑聲

情話是美景 一心醉便忘形
紅岸是背景 輕舟點出尾聲
剩我一人飄 上飄往幸福處
星星掛夜空卻沒氣力撐到那麼遠

人情在 花不開 春天過後要等待
情人在 心不再 哪有動情是意外
驀然忘了當初怎決定相愛 相愛的心終於都變做感慨
為何遇上最愛偏要避開 孤舟哪處靠岸不會被掩蓋*

在緣份的天空可會預測愛 這世間有幾多情侶可一世相愛

凝望你背影 傷感沾濕眼睛
明月夜冷清 只因心水已清

Thank you OCAD

"Though employers would not think to ask an electrician or carpenter to work for nothing, it often is taken for granted that artists and designers will do just about anything - including building complete web sites or branding products - solely for the purposes of enhancing their portfolios. Not so. Artists and designers also must eat and pay for housing. Artists and designers are highly skilled, and valued contributors to healthy economies."
Thanks for thinking of our students and alumni.

Thank you OCAD for posting that at the Job Board in Bold fonts. The employers in the world needs to know that! We don't work for free.

一刀了斷

Opportunities?

Decisions, decisions and decisions. God, i hate making choices!

It is not my nature of quitting something that i worked so hard for it. I know sometimes when there's an opportunity comes, I should go for it no matter what. However, after a deep thought, there are many uncertainties and questions comes to my mind. So I've decided to stay and continue on what I started, rather than going into a new place that it doesn't guarantee a position. Another reason is what I'm doing now can eventually open many doors in the future. Also, he mentioned that I'm very talented, creative and have strong potential, but how come I didn't get hire back in October? One of my friend said he was shocked that the other girl got hired and not me. Seriously, her portfolio is nowhere near mine! After all, I was an A+ Thesis student.

Thanks to everyone that helped me and all the valuable feedback.
I have made my decision.

3 in 1

Flipping through the dates of my calendar, I just realized in February, Valentines' day, Chinese New Year and Family Day long weekend are all on the same day! How wonderful is that. Especially for all the spoiled kids on this planet. Maybe i really should think about what to do on that day. Perhaps something memorable?

Beginning

Last Tuesday was the first day of my intern, and I love every second of it. It is a privilege and honour for me to work at such high-end office and experience what the design world really is. Not only that I learned how design office function, more importantly, I'm able to met some new people that had been in this field for decades. I wish I could work there for the rest of my life! It might be too early to predict and grasp my future at the moment, but I hope I can continue my dream of becoming an interior designer. So, I will put my heart in it, do the best and hopefully someone can acknowledge my skills and creativity.

Midnight always giving me a feeling of calm and peacefulness. Sitting on my warm, comfy bed with my laptop and gazing at the lonely street. Listening to music, simply let my mind rest and just translate my thoughts into words.

01.04.2010

Tomorrow will be a new start, hope everything will go well. 2010 is for all the underdogs and runner ups, notice the 2 in 2010 is before the 1. I had everything prepared and I'm physically and mentally ready. Wish me luck

麥玲玲 2010 生肖兔

整體運程
吉星“太陽”代表有男性貴人相助，有“照遠不照近”的意思，你不妨選擇將工作重地轉移外地，出差公幹有助 加強個人運勢。而吉星“天空”則代表天馬行空，源源不絕的創作靈感浮現眼前，對從事創作及設計工作的人士最有利。而“唐符”吉星則與徹底發揮領導才能有 關，從事紀律部隊的肖兔者威望及權力有增強的意象，可喜可賀。今年事業發展相當不錯，雄心壯志，將可以有理想的發展，但處事不宜急進。

財運
由 於獲得“太陽”吉星的照耀，從事與男士有關的生意範疇，即銷售汽車、模型、男性衣服或音響等工作，今年勢必客似雲來，財運滾滾。同時可留意與自己關係良好 的男性客戶，對方介紹一班具有消費潛力的新客，有助生意額直線上升。另外，“太陽”具有“照遠不照近”的意象，若然你需要經常與外國人洽商，則會有助生意 發展順遂，因為你處於“宜動不宜靜”的年份，經常遊走經商具有“動中生財”的意象。
另外，在吉星“天空”及“唐符”的帶動下，腦海中的創意靈感一 觸即發，從事與設計、編劇、廣告或寫作有關工作的人士，今年會創意無限，以新橋段及噱頭引人注目。偏財方面，可以聘請男性股票經紀為自己代勞，或是從男性 長輩的可靠消息中略有斬獲，謹記“合太歲”年份運勢動盪不定，切勿貪婪。

事業
今年整體的事業運勢相當不錯，由於得到“太陽”星的眷顧，男性上司悉心提拔，為自己排除升職的阻礙，只要緊守崗位，升職在望。而從事紀律部隊的肖兔者，在“唐符”星的助力下，個人領導才能得以徹底發揮，權力及威望有加強的意象，下屬服從性高，雙方關係良好。
但由於受到“寅卯相合”的影響，你求變的心態較以往強烈。有意於今年落實轉換工作的計畫者，不妨向以往曾提攜自己的男性舊上司或客戶打探消息，對方或許向你提供不錯的轉職機會。但當然要確定正式受聘，才可以銳意辭職，以免受到不穩定的運勢影響，切勿急進行事。

1987年：丁卯年（虛歲24歲）
不論是踏足社會的畢業生，或是早於社會打滾多年的小夥子，今年可遇上具發展潛力的機會。財運有明顯的進賬，但謹 記不要過於急進及自視過高，宜虛心學習，不斷增進個人知識，將來前途發展一片光明。感情方面，與伴侶關係尚未穩定，轉換伴侶實屬閒事，仍是單身的人士則依 然孤單，還是將心力放在事業發展為妙。