One More Day

Time for new years resolution.

1. a good career
2. healthier body
3. get the certificate in Lighting Design, hopefully LEED as well
   
4. expand my network
   
5. pay back my osap loan
6. G2
   
7. find my other half
   
8. just be a better person

2010 is a very good year for Rabbit. Especially people that are in the creative (design) field.
Their imagination will be explosive!
Therefore, i will keep my fingers and foot crossed and see what happens.

12.25.09

Merry Christmas Everyone

Wish you all the best and have a wonderful Christmas Eve with friends and family.

Time flies

Time does flies so fast this year. In less than 4 days is Christmas. To me, first half of 2009 i was so productive and energetic on my Thesis project which I did great. After graduation is where my downhill starts. From June to Auguest, i was working on my profolio intensely. However, job hunt didnt went so well due to my lack of experiences. I was going to find a part-time job, but i went back to GZ for a month because of my grandma's illness. When i came back, it was where i reached the abyss of my life. Rejected by offices, couldn't find a part-time and OSAP repayment began. Man, what a catastrophy. Luckily, i decided to do internship for now and got accepted by a good firm (so glad). In 2010, there aren't much i'm hoping for. I just want to have a good career, expand and focus my future on that.

Some Sh!t

I can't express how much I love my part-time job, since i got good pay just to be bitch at for 7 hours. This is what happened: today is my actual starting day of work. Since I know nothing about this industry, so today is like a general walk through of the basic stuffs I need to know. However, I cannot stand how much I am being treated disrespectfully.
Here is a list of shit he said:

• why are you so stupid
• just stood here, don't move and watch what i'm doing. Next second, you are blocking me, get out of my way
• stop asking stupid questions
  
• do you even have common sense
• you so useless (that's hurtful)
• don't rush, next second, i don't pay you to for painting the same spot in half hour
• why you dress so nice to work at renovation place (ok, its my worst high school clothes)
• he actually said i'm useless 27 times today!!! wow. that's a record breaking. Since i've never been bitch this much in 7 hours. hahaha

At the end of the day, i literally wants to smack him with the paint brush! But I am an educated, kind and thoughtful person.

Substitution

I began to think that I am a substitution. Maybe I am over reacted and sensitive, but my intuition tells me that it is. At this point, I know I shouldn't ask for more. However, I keep asking myself is it worth it. I understand this is a process I need to go through, what my concern is will it all going to be waste at the end. Still, I am not a backup dancer on a stage that's just there to make the singer shines. I cannot foresee my future in that position, I felt I belong to somewhere else which I 'm about to be discover in 2010. I have a strong feeling this will going to happen.

"Ambition is like love, impatient both of delays and rivals." -Buddha

Pour Homme

Birthday present. Although its 1 month late, but i like it a lot. I guess this 90ml cologne pour homme will be enough to use for 2 years.

二三事

如同那天上皓月般多變而難以捉摸。愛冷眼旁觀著身邊一切，身處其中卻又不願與過份投入，比誰都抽離、比誰都清醒。可這樣的你絕對不是無情的人，你其 實比誰都有情，只是不願把那份多愁善感擺在人前。你害怕受到傷害，所以就藏在心底，裝作漠然，戴上那面具。

Love the clean and simpleness of my blog. The subtle textures in the background similar to the wallpaper in my condo lobby. The colour tone: white, gray and cerulean blue gives a sense calm and fresh feeling to it. The two column style is easy to follow, and i changed the size of the text from normal to small. Also, I shrink the width of the two columns smaller which makes it more elegant to read. The size of the You-Tube video follows the double lines above under the heading, everything lines up and organize. hehe

Tore My Heart

Jakob and Ellenore's contemporary routine choreographed by Sonya. I had been waiting in this season for a routine that would leave an indelible impression. I got it! This was my goosebumps routine. I felt like those two were in a "different class" compared to the other contestants. The part where she "stuck on the wall" at 0:23 was fabulous. They fully portrayed the characters in the story and fantastic chemistry as well. Also the way he move his hips from 0:13 - 0:20 was crazy. The way he flexibly stretched his foot is annoyingly brilliant as if he doesn't have any bones in his body. Dancing is another form of sport and art. I'll probably dance like a gingerbread if I do this routine. hahaha

Twitter

I've been thinking about this for a long time. So let's follow me on Twitter as well! Another social network program that i'm fall in love with. Its simple to use, you can connect with your friends and get their latest updates. Much faster than Facebook.

http://twitter.com/austinnWang

Feeling Warm this winter

Brought this jacket from Club Monaco yesterday (although i'm broke). It is the warmest jacket i've ever had in my life. And yes, its expensive. However, mine is a little bit different from the one above. The edge of the hood and the jacket on that one is white and gray stripes. Mine is black and white stripes which defines the edge and makes it more stands out. Since i need to wear something semi-formal for my internship in January, therefore, i guess i still need to go shopping again near Christmas T.T

What is wrong with the weather these days, looks gloomy and rains all the time, makes me even more desperate. I think i need another trip! Aside from my part-time job, i still have some spare times left. Maybe i really need to use this time wisely to improve myself in all aspects. That's why i decided to take the Lighting Design course at Ryerson which available in spring. Can't believe i need to do an interview just for taking a course. Luckily i am eligible for it.

有些事總是平靜地意外....來臨

Things are slowly getting back on track and go with the ways that are within my control. Waiting is a complete waste of time. That is why i gave up on finding a full time job in design firm, and just focus on my internship starting in January at II By IV Design. To be honest, even internship is hard to find. Meanwhile, I will be doing a part-time job for home renovation. Although its physical work, however, i have the chance to learn how things are put together, calculate the cost of materials and small details of interior finishing. This is the perfect experience for actual site interior finishing.

Sometimes stubbornness will only make you stay on the same spot. Whereas letting go can lead you to unexpected fortunate.

最近听左藍奕邦新CD, 為極度疲憊的我注入了一支力量針!!!

放低... 然後向前走

經歷過一連串的考驗, 發覺, 在最困難的時候, 是沒有時間讓你退縮, 亦沒法到逃避, 時間是不會等人, 亦不能叫時間停頓, 阻止任何事情發生. 在最難過的時候, 真的不能讓自己有任何一刻的怯懦, 因為, 一投降, 就會被打低, 倒下來, 而最可怕的, 就是在這些艱難的日子, 往往都只有自己可以打救自己, 別人的幫忙都遠遠不及自己的造化. 但其實只要咬緊牙關, 一步一步的向前走, 到最後, 當每場洗劫完結後, 你會發覺, 其實真的沒什麼大不了.

對, 我們想想懷念小時候, 無夏無慮的日子, 慨嘆人大了, 當成年人的日子, 便有一個又一個成年人的問題要去面對. 埋怨現在不比以前快樂. 但是, 時間不會倒流, 我們也是一天一天長大, 如果我們只懂得懷緬過去, 便不會有進步, 不會有力氣去做一個有承擔的成年人.

現實往往不是美好的, 這是我這三年來親身驗證的一個事實, 我亦不敢說, 最好的尚未來臨. 可能是, 低處未算低. 但無論如何, 只要簡簡單單的, 向前走, 走過, 又是一條好漢.

Jakob Karr

Absolutely stunning Contemporary solo. He is one of the contestant from this season's So You Think You Can Dance. He will definitely be in the top 4 and possibly the winner of season 6.

Nigel was extremely disappointed at the solos of tonight's bottom 3 couples. Well, lets hope Jakob wouldn't end up in the bottom 3, so his solo can be a surprise later once he reach top 10 where everyone needs to dance for their lives.

夠鐘

風沙撲面我未怕　為你暴走
驚覺只有沙　沒有綠洲
還是放棄　無謂獻醜

22 (Part 2)

Another fabulous night at 100 Degrees for hot pot. I'm still waiting for my present from fianne *wink wink* hehe. That night was my first time learn how to play poker. At first, i lost all of my chips, however in the end, i became the big winner. hahaha maybe its my birthday luck. too bad we didn't gamble. Last year, i made two wishes, one came true. So this year, i did the same thing, made two wishes. All i'm hoping is one will came true la.

遇見

I never thought I would see that person again, 想不到在萬萬人海中也能遇見.
We chatted for awhile, however it felt strange and awkward. We were both very surprised, since we haven't contact each other for around 5 years. More clearly, i think its after my "accident", i felt that i don't really belong to that group of people anymore because i kind of felt i was being isolated and betrayed. Now, I did became more maturer, therefore, 吃, 喝, 玩, 樂和遊戲人生 is not what i want to do anymore. Although there is still no luck on job hunt, so i guess its time to switch to Plan B.

22

2009 is almost over. Turning 22 on October 29. Hope on my birthday will have some good news on the interviews la. Otherwise my plan for next month is to find an internship, at the same time a whatever part-time job to solve my financial problem.

Had a spectacular night at Moxies. Since we waited a long time for the table, so we got an appetizer for free!!

金剛經

遇了險
猶如煉金般怎麼怕猛火燒
沒人仰望還是未有動搖　
負傷衝上雲霄

Interviews

Its been 2 months since i started mailing my resume and cover letter to Design firms. At the end of August, I had the privilege to have an interview with one of the top interior design firm in Toronto. However, there is no word from them after the first interview (although they said they would like to have a second interview with me). Still, after this experience, I learned alot about what to prepare, the type of question they are asking and what they focus on the most during interview.

Its been awhile since my last interview in August. Yesterday, after my trip to GZ, I received a phone call from an Interior Design Firm ^.^ Also, there was a firm contacted me while i was away and now we are trying to rearrange another time so we could meet. Seriously, I never thought they will reconsider me since i was in GZ when they contacted me. Lucky!!!

So, i guess i will be busy this weekend for interview preparation, getting my letter of recommendation from Jeremy (my Thesis prof) on monday and Interiview on Tuesday.

+ oil

Back in Toronto

Back in Toronto. Tired and still having a little jet lag. 3 weeks in GZ is definitely not enough. Well, next time i go back, i will probably going to stay for at least one month.
Things that are common in GZ:

• "炒花擦蟹" is the most common greeting phrase
• lineup?! what's that?
  
• talk and laugh loudly like they own the restaurant
  
• enjoy gathering with family and friends, solving their problems and knowing each others business
• crossing the road fence like 劉翔
• smoking in the mall
• staring at ppl
  
• and many more ... ...
  

Me and my cousins @ GZ

GZ

After the long hours of flight, I'm finally arrived at GZ. When I first stepped out of the airplane, the heatwaves had already caused me headache. The temperature is hot and dry. The street is jammed with cars and people. The whole city planning is a mess. Since the Asian Olympic is going to be in GZ next year, therefore, alot of streets and major routes are undergoing huge renovation. Dust and Dirty are flying everywhere. argh........ There is nothing (other than foods) i like about GZ.

Grandma is able to come home from the hospital. She recovered alot. However, she needs to go back in two weeks to do the cancer treatment (which is going to be very painful). Right now I'm living at my aunt's place. Its weird that I cannot login to facebook and youtube, because stupid China blocked all those sites due to Chinese national day on October 1. Very Pathetic. >.<

The Bench Routine

One of the best performance/dance on So You Think You Can Dance by Heidi and Travis Wall. Choreographed by Mia Michaels.

離開，是為了回來

Leaving on 09.17.09
Coming back on 10.13.09

On one hand i'm extremely excited for going back this time, because its been five years since the last time i visited GZ and Hong Kong. However, i'm anxious and depress at the same time because of the illness my grandma got. Well, I guess this is life.

If i don't go back this time, who knows how long i need to wait once i find a job in Toronto.
All i can do is to enjoy this trip to GZ as much as i can, forget about job hunt for 3 weeks and just relax. For some reason, I felt it is destine that i must go back this time. I don't know why. This might sound absurded, but somehow I can feel it. hahahaha. Anyways, maybe good fortune will happen like interviews *cough, cough* once i come back. hehehe


留低是個選擇　離開亦未算放開一切壓抑

searching ...

Its September already, I missed the days of school. Thesis, piles and piles of work and during those time, sleeping became a distant memory. However, I still enjoy every second of it, because I have a goal that I need to achieve. Last year in my birthday, I made two wishes. One came true, the other one, well, I think I need to wait a bit longer.

Its been two weeks and still no reply. I guess its not going to happen. Therefore, I'm planning to go back to GZ and Hong Kong for 2 or 3 weeks to visit my relatives, most importantly, my grandma. Its been 5 years since the last time I went back. GZ changed a lot. The street, people and building etc... I felt I don't really belong there anymore. Maybe I got used to the western culture of living where everything move at a slow and serene pace. After this trip, I wouldn't be going back for at least another 4 years. So it is the last time I can see my grandma. sigh.

Last night went to Go For Tea with Dan, Kin and May. And congratulation to Kin for successfully entered the police training school after one month of waiting. They all said sometimes no news means good news, because that means I am still on their waiting list, rather than sending me an email say I am being rejected. Hope they are right la.

Beautiful weather this week, yet I want it to rain.

心雪

日本東尋坊，
有一個斷崖，
有很多人在那裡了結生命。

不知何時，
崖邊設了一個電話亭，
並寫有一張便條，
「請在離開之前，致電您的至親。」

我會努力生活，
希望你也是，
即使在「心雪」之時。

柏林迴盪著對維也納的眷戀
如果思念能熬過時間
天涯海角也會再見

24 herbs II

Welcome to my hat collection. Another 24 herbs red trucker cap with white mesh and black logo!

Bose

Went to Best Buy today and brought this Bose SoundDock Series II. The sound is fantastic. The price is ideal too. $50 off plus one $50 gift card!!!

Also, I ordered the Bose in-ear headphone last night from RBC rewards. Since I collect enough reward points these years, so its free! If i buy the headphone in retail, it will cost around $140 including tax, which is a little too expensive. Word for advice, never buy the i-skin headphone, it completely broke down after 4 monthes. Wow, now i have a collection of Bose products at home.

24 herbs

The classic 24 Herbs logo trucker cap is back! Just ordered one online last night. So excited, can't wait for it to arrive. This season's new colour combination looks very stylish. I'm thinking to get the red one later.

I ordered the Alivenotdead.com Red Trucker cap on August 3. However, I still haven't received the item yet. Probably there is a delay or the shipment is missing. I already sent an e-mail to the company, if it turns out to be a missing shipment, then I will ask them to mail me the Red 24 Herbs cap instead.

The reason that I love Trucker Cap so much, because not only it looks good, also I don't need to gel my hair all the time and it actually makes me seem taller! (close to 6') hahahaha

Relieved ...

Her surgery was a success. However, the doctor said we still need to observe her condition for the next month. It was a relief. Since it had already spread to other parts of the body, her remaining time with us is no longer than 2 years. Well, I guess its better than less than a month if she refuse to do the surgery. There is nothing much I can do, other than be there with her and talk to her as much as I can. My aunt said her friends were singing with her in the hospital, OH GOD! lucky I wasn't there. hahaha.

如無意外

其時其實我不想失去了你

her surgery is tomorrow, i just hope everything will be alright. Although it had already spread to other parts of the body, and recover seems impossible. But still, we will always be there and give all the supports we can. I don't know the chance of success, however, if there is only 50% chance, we will still fight for it.

State of Mind

人浮於事，生的生，死的死，留的留，走的走，其中開始與結束時，最花工夫就是收拾一切，心情； 在收拾的時候，最困難的就是取捨﹔在取捨的時候，最要命就是捨不得